Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Happy New Years Everyone!!!
I cut up a bunch of white printing paper and threw it all up in the air! The vacuum couldn't pick it all up on the floor so i had to get on my hands and knees and do work! I look silly here =p
Just wanted to say, I truly appreciate all of you here who check back, leave constant comments, and who are good friends to me on here :] You have all helped inspire me to be where I am today! So cheers to 2008, and Hello 2009!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Jane's Biography: Most jugglers, as you know, are two-handed. However, Jane's "special advantage" leaves her room to juggle up to 100 things at once.
Glad I had a chance today to contribute to my circus series! ive been really out of tune with my mind lately :]. hope you all are having a good holiday.
Monday, December 29, 2008
"...I got nothing for you to gain." dedicated to the sleevefaces.
I'm desperately trying to get out of my mind-block. There is nothing worse than feeling defeated by something you love to do. I'm super competitive with others around me and to myself. I beat myself up lately knowing I've got nothing up my sleeve. I think maybe I left all my inspiration on the plane ride, and someone's stolen it! I thought coming home would cure my blues as well, but it hasn't. Its only jumbled my mind. Help.
ive been using my dad's prehistoric tripod, and always wanted to kill it while using it. kill it in frustration, i mean. today definitely tops as the "i hate myself" day of my 365. ideas were small, and when they came, dino-tripod wouldn't allow it.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
this is my first time posting some usage from my AB 800! yayyyy strobism. at 1/8 of power, bare. i even have a light meter to cheat >=) really fun and i can't wait to use it more often.
yesterday was a good barrier breaker for me. and i'm glad some things that were left unsaid, are now said.
hope you are all enjoying the holiday season still!
i just wanted to post a funny picture, explaining my frustration at how windy it is outside! i woke up this morining to sounds that were like the wind murdering the trees. and rain beating on my window. i was so out of it asleep i convinced myself the wind would push through my window. it never did though :] but dang! stepping outside today was awful. wind blowing me every which way. fun and awful. i think im actually a little embarrassed posting this. haha.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
merry christmas! i hope you are all enjoying your family and company.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
(she looks like my dad, i look like my mom)
Merry Christmas eve!!!! i have a cute photo for tomorrow.
ps. i love brown tones right now. :]
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I have to take pictures of me and my sister tomorrow for a present im giving my mom! excited to see them come up cause I think they will be great. She will like it i think. Shes that "memento" type of person. I feel like movie watching the rest of the night until I fall asleep. Sounds too good to me. Night flickr! Enjoy pre-christmas!
PS. I've been working on my first album cover this week! I had a slight set-back with guy models, but man, i am loving it. These are the type of projects i breathe and live for.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
i love my shutters. the light coming in makes me feel real. like its from a movie. i just wanted it to be simple too. relax my mind.
i went to the eye doctors today and had my eyes re-examined. i am ashamed to admit that last time i went i fainted when they wanted to put eye drops into my eye that "might sting" as the doctor said. i have a huge fear of doctors. i just dont like machines i have no control over. its weird and i cant even imagine what i'll be like if i have to have surgery or have a baby! goodness. lets not think about that.
OH YES! its day 182 (I'm halfway done!). you want to know my secret news? oh ok. :] When I am finished with my 365, I'll be having my own gallery showing of it ALL as a "thank God i'm done!" I'll begin working on it sometime after march and hopefully have a good location by then as well among other things there (musicians). It will probably be in summer seeing as I'm done on June 24th. Lets hope this all comes together! I'd love to have it in multi-cities, but we'll see if the opportunity comes. :]
Saturday, December 20, 2008
The Lion's Biography: A fearsome thing to behold, but the charm of pearl. Beware, this female lion is very dangerous. ;]
Hahah. This was hilarious to shoot. painting my face and making my hair so curly it resembled an afro= great. I have to thank one of my friends for giving me the idea to paint my face like an animal! The closeup my face is even funnier :] I was trying to pose like a lion but ended up looking like a monkey! I think the next one I will be the tamer. :]
My dad's company dinner is tonight. Gotta run!
Friday, December 19, 2008
im so burnt out on shopping. been going everyday with mom and dad since i got here. tomorrow i get to car shop though. drove me an audi last time. idk the model but it was fast. and i wanted it. i want a fast car. its probably a phase.
ps. LOVENAILTREE SHIRT! www.lovenailtree.com
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I made my outfit last night which was basically just the mini top hat and gold skirt with tulle. I think I'll post a close up of it in a little because I'm pretty proud of it.
4 more days till' i tell a cool secret.
I went shopping with my dad today again. My mom is hard to shop for, but waaay easy when we have a list. I think we got her everything in about 30 minutes? I know...He also bought his usual for her, which consists of something that costs a lot of money and that she will hate. I guess my dad never learns? Or my mom just doesn't know how to accept a nice gift. I think its more the second one.
hope you are all enjoying the holidays! the fog just rolled in and it look sooo beautiful.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
for now, you all get to meet my kitteh, Napoleon. (named after Napoleon Bonaparte because he is a smalllll small tabby) hes a cutie.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
my parents and sister almost died laughing seeing me in this number. tights, tutu, silver shoes, yikes!
its about...20-something degrees outside, and i dont know how im going to get the balls go shoot outside. im just pretty glad i brought my boots. :]
hope you are all warm and cuddled up at home!
Monday, December 15, 2008
i am soooo relieved i am caught up now on my 365 and HOME! i already have tons of ideas for future 365's! Yes. this is exactly what i needed. too bad its so dang bittersweet.
my friends know about my somewhat obsessive compulsion for twilight....reading all day and night. so as a "joke" one of my friends bought me this shirt. they know me too well i guess, because its totally not a joke to me. i love it and will wear it around them everyday just to bug them. ahhhh kidding. but really. just look at that face...
but i am the proud owner of a shiny new red baby ipod nano. these things are damn compact. i feel like i could crush it within seconds. but, also the perfect size for me. and glad some profits went to AIDS. thanks Jer for my gift :] love you.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
im 2 days behind! my grandma "kicked" me out for the weekend since her sister and brother are coming in from england. so ive been unable to find suitable places for my 365. tragic. but once im home, ill be all ready to explode with choas. thanks for being patient. im going to try and catch up tonight and tomorrow. :] have a good night all.
Friday, December 12, 2008
only 3 more days until i am home in Texas for my christmas break. I am excited and not. One, I get a break from my grandparents who have been really...not-so-nice lately. Two, im missing two of my friend's birthdays! :[ sad. Three, I get to be home! and sleep in anddddd be spoiled for 3 weeks =p
Thursday, December 11, 2008
i've been getting a lot of orders in my etsy shop for pictures, and was sooooo excited that people were ordering biiig pictures! 24x24's and 20x30's! so excited to get an opportunity to see them in real life. i drool over them, shamefully. if any of you order prints and hang them up, PLEASE send me pictures so i can see them in action! ive got a few more orders to settle today, so i am excited for that!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
"some say the world will end in fire, some say in ice. from what I've tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if it had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate to say that for destruction ice is also great and would suffice."
if i had any more time in my day i would have been a little more creative. but my finals are sucking every last breath out of me. (no pun?) so here i am. little me. my face of fire in your world of ice. eeeehhhhhhhh. oh before i go, good news. i passed biology! i need to celebrate....forever.
i realize this is more manipulated than im used to. i try and keep it simple now. but i couldnt help myself. it was funny.
gotta study! enjoy all your sleep!
Monday, December 8, 2008
I want to personally thank my friends at Love.Nail.Tree Clothing! They offered to give me some really awesome new clothes to sport in my 365! (basically endorsed, right? pretty dang sweet...) And let me tell you...I'm in love with the shirts! I have a photo on my blog so you can better see this shirt...It does not do it justice here! Not to mention theres a sweet design on the INSIDE! Click on the link to check out some of there other stuff!
in other news, i finished book 3. i loved it but was pretty disappointed about how much the author touched on the subject of Bella loving Jacob. In love. what?! that almost ruined it for me. But...I understand. Now I need to hunt around for book 4...
I have finals all this week, and its looking pretty scary! I really hope I can get through them all. My schedule next semester seems really nice. lots of art classes...finally getting into stuff thats up my alley! I hope you are all having a good monday...although monday's usually suck. nonetheless! I am happy to hear from you all :]
Friday, December 5, 2008
"even when it seems impossible. even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me..."
sorry i have been so slow updating! I've had a rough couple days. Not bad rough, but busy rough. Last night was a really good night for me. And I'm very thankful for all the people in my life who are so supportive of this project. Someone yesterday who I hadn't seen in a long time said I was amazing (with a huuuuuge smile on his face). Its a small word, but I was so overwhelmed I thought I might cry. I didn't :] But once again. thanks to all of you who check up on me :] You dont even know...how much I am grateful.
The surprise is coming on day 182. well. It seems dumb now. But, I think its fun.
ps. I love coming across amazing stock.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I was reading again in the library. But, instead of smiling while reading, I was almost in tears. Realizing my scenery of college kids, I was quick to hide my feelings. Its pathetic when I can relate to a love story. These series really capture my self. I was in pure agony in book two. I thought the nightmares wouldn't end myself, thinking about it all being over. I got curious and even went to the end of the book, just to make sure Edward wasn't an a-hole for the rest of it. I was pleased. I think I relate to Bella more than I understand. My life may not be as romantic as being with a vampire, but I understand the unbearable sense of being away from someone you love. I sometimes try and imagine what it would be like, and as pathetic as it may sound...I think it would be dangerously closely to Bella's "black hole" experiences.
I think this may have been the most vulnerable journal to date. But really nice to let some steam off my chest. I'm a girl, after all....I need to breathe.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
like my new book that i am now hooked onto for dear life: twilight. i havent been so....animated while reading since JK first wrote all those lovely HP's. And this ones different. I just melt, basically. I can be such a sappy romantic. People who are mysterious and endearing like Edward....I really wish existed in the world. My Bf should be careful, this book could be a terrible obsession =p.
You know, the funny thing is, i read it in the library today when i should have been studying for my last lab test for biology. nope. i just read. and the worst part, i was mostly smiling the entire time at a table full of people. i even tried to cover my mouth with my jacket to keep from looking like an idiot.
oooo dear. i will get through this though. and my life will be simple again, if only for a few days.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
i'm home safely now from Texas. Going back in exactly two weeks. and alone this time! :D more time with mom. (i just need to finish my finals and poof, i'm gone).
i'm really tired tonight, but i wanted to admit to everyone, that i secretly watched twilight last night at 3am. bad news for my sleep. i had told almost all my close friends how much i loathed this movie because i knew they were cheaters from harry potter. well. i was wrong. the only thing in common i guess is the lead role, who was in the HP movie. plus it deals with super natural powers, etc. but totally different storyline. but let me just tell you all loud and clear. after that movie, i wished i was edward's vampire girlfriend. i even made my boyfriend take me to the bookstore today in a freakish frenzy to find book #2 because i dont have the patience to wait for the movie. dun dun dun....insert new obsession.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
saw this stock today and fell in love. although i still wish i had more time on my hands to give the image its true....beauty i guess. with the grandparents here, it doesnt exactly make this trip relaxing. less time for anything. yikes!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
happy turkey day tomorrow!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
i am so excited to be home! resting...and playing and being outside because i have so much more freedom! i've had a somewhat busy day today, and i still have more things to do to prepare myself for my folktales final portfolio for my photography final. ahh! it will be great. i will be doing some digital images so you can see them all ASAP. also, i will be having a friend come over to shoot some behind-the-scenes so you can all get an idea of my set-up. i will also be posting a video today or tomorrow, depending on how quickly the light falls. maybe a tour of the farm behind us :]
i hope you all are enjoying the thanksgiving week!
Monday, November 24, 2008
you will see some super awesome shots up soon. for now, i need sleep. i have a flight to catch tomorrow! ooooo home. you sound so good right now.
ps. you know that news i was going to tell you all in 6 months? well. its getting close. and im really excited.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
sorry for my recent M.I.A. i was up in the mountains allllll today shooting a band and hanging out. plus i had to come home and pack ASAP.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
i had a much different image in my mind. i wanted to physically tape my body to the ground but, i dont think my grandma's dog could have helped even. sorry, baxter. i need a personal assistant sometimes. haha! i wish...
i did some product shots yesterday. wow. really crazy stuff because its totally not my style, as you all can tell. but fun to try and get under my belt.
hope you all are having a good friday, and enjoy your weekend :]
Thursday, November 20, 2008
lets hope this door is the right one.
this took a while to edit. i would have loved to smash my laptop a couple times, but refrained, thankfully. i need to teach myself some new tricks.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
i just want to curl up and sleep today.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
i am going back home to Texas in about 6 days! and almost as soon as I come back...I'll be back in a flash. Very excited to just be home, but also to have more time for my 365 project. I'm hoping to use some models for some other ideas I have on the side as well. :]
i think the next 5 days will only be happy photos. i am so excited to go back home and relax. the stress of school and everything around me is daunting. need to let loose. although some of my stress will be coming along with me (my grandparents) ill be happy to leave and take a break. and be in MY OWN house :]
ill be scanning some images from my last photo assignment which was FUN! saran wrapping friends is a great idea. i also was told my photo final is on fairytales. i chose alice because i've always loved her and her story. i used to tell myself i'd be alice at disneyland. maybe one day...
i hope you are all having a stress free afternoon. if not. sit down. and do so.
ps.I have to credit the awesome Rosie for giving me the swift idea to make my own mountain. :] Shes brilliant.