Friday, December 5, 2008
"even when it seems impossible. even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me..."
sorry i have been so slow updating! I've had a rough couple days. Not bad rough, but busy rough. Last night was a really good night for me. And I'm very thankful for all the people in my life who are so supportive of this project. Someone yesterday who I hadn't seen in a long time said I was amazing (with a huuuuuge smile on his face). Its a small word, but I was so overwhelmed I thought I might cry. I didn't :] But once again. thanks to all of you who check up on me :] You dont even know...how much I am grateful.
The surprise is coming on day 182. well. It seems dumb now. But, I think its fun.
ps. I love coming across amazing stock.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I was reading again in the library. But, instead of smiling while reading, I was almost in tears. Realizing my scenery of college kids, I was quick to hide my feelings. Its pathetic when I can relate to a love story. These series really capture my self. I was in pure agony in book two. I thought the nightmares wouldn't end myself, thinking about it all being over. I got curious and even went to the end of the book, just to make sure Edward wasn't an a-hole for the rest of it. I was pleased. I think I relate to Bella more than I understand. My life may not be as romantic as being with a vampire, but I understand the unbearable sense of being away from someone you love. I sometimes try and imagine what it would be like, and as pathetic as it may sound...I think it would be dangerously closely to Bella's "black hole" experiences.
I think this may have been the most vulnerable journal to date. But really nice to let some steam off my chest. I'm a girl, after all....I need to breathe.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
like my new book that i am now hooked onto for dear life: twilight. i havent been so....animated while reading since JK first wrote all those lovely HP's. And this ones different. I just melt, basically. I can be such a sappy romantic. People who are mysterious and endearing like Edward....I really wish existed in the world. My Bf should be careful, this book could be a terrible obsession =p.
You know, the funny thing is, i read it in the library today when i should have been studying for my last lab test for biology. nope. i just read. and the worst part, i was mostly smiling the entire time at a table full of people. i even tried to cover my mouth with my jacket to keep from looking like an idiot.
oooo dear. i will get through this though. and my life will be simple again, if only for a few days.